Good morning everyone!!
I’m posting super-early (for my usual Thursday time) but I wanted to make sure I didn’t forget about y’all in the midst of WRITING LOCKDOWN WEEK. For those of you who I’m facebook friends with, you may have noticed the absence of my glittering presence on that site this week. That’s because due to various things (some good, some bad) I had not been writing a lot recently. I said to myself–enough’s enough! I am going to finish this novel ONCE AND FOR ALL (this is the 7th draft) by Saturday night! So I’ve battened all the hatches, barred the doors, unplugged the phone, and chained myself to my desk. It is time to get down to business.
I always write with my bathrobe on. Even if I’m fully dressed and it’s summer, I am usually clad in the red monstrosity that is my fleece robe. It just helps me think better 🙂 I wrote out every page number on a big sheet of paper, and I cross out each page as it’s revised. I try to focus on the X’s I’ve made and not the vast quantities of numbers that aren’t crossed out. I’m mostly successful. 🙂
It’s been really hard (but good) work. I am slogging away, doing 20-25 pages a day, which is at least twice my normal output on a good day. It’s a breakneck pace, but it forces me to ignore the voice in my head which tells me I’m not a good writer–there’s just no time for it. So that’s good. Writing for hours a day is really grueling. I’m used to writing for a bit, then reading or researching, maybe a little volunteering in the afternoon. Just writing sunup to sundown (or more) is very tough. But fun. It’s the toughest job you’ll ever love, right? Or is that parenting? The Army? I don’t know.
I think what I’m writing is good. I don’t know. I have no idea. Sometimes I hate every word of the book. Sometimes the beauty of it almost makes me cry. Generally it just makes me want to barf. So that’s probably pretty par for the course, 7 drafts and three years in 🙂
The “Frankenstein” issue of Nonbinary Review should be out any day now! If you have an ipad, go download the Zoetic Press app right now to get ready. It’s free! You can see the whole issue, which is bound to be gorgeous (it’s illustrated and really artfully woven together. I was so impressed with their Grimm’s fairy tale issue!). If you don’t have an iPad, I’ve gotten permission to post the story here after the issue’s out, so you will get to read at least my story. I will have that up as soon as it’s available, so come back soon!
It’s National Suicide Prevention week, so if you know someone who needs help, please reach out. There are lots of resources available (like imalive.org, the group I volunteer with). On this anniversary of 9/11 (has it really been 13 years?), let’s all be kinder to each other than usual. Let’s see if we can make a dent in the nasty karma that is this day, fight the evil back with good. My thoughts and prayers go out to those who lost loved ones that day.
See you next week!!